Undone Breakup w/L

still havn't spoken w/L ...
i've just received texts from L in the past 3 days, i didnt logged into the msn, not after what happened last time, (we had cybersex w/camera and all, and i came too)
but thats not the point. the thing is that when he call me, i will say all of what i have to say jejeje

sooooo any things i want to tell him...

like why he lied so much
was he really serious
why did he say he loved me
when clearely he didnt mean it

i just know that JC, JC is who I love, and who i really want to be whith.

i guess i really neaded that wake up call, was like somebody telling me, get it u idiot!! he's the one!!!